Sleepless nights.

♥LaLa Land™

*grumbles.

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*17o111* .

JabberwockyJanuary. ♥

Monday.

-.-

*puke.

need a weekend job

fixed schedule

stable income

accurate waiting time 
STAT.

ideas?

Talking to stars.. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*261o1o* .

OasisOctober.

Tuesday

Photoshop.
it does things to me.

Reached sch at o715+ coz dad drove me.. =/
Started class with laptop givin' problems.
Me & Daniel sent his laptop to IT helpdesk.
but we sure wasted our time trying to borrow one.

Freakin' charged me for services i didn't attain.
they didn't tell me they hadn't any with CS4 installed

when i specifically asked.
& i had to get my laptop all the way in class for fcuk.

so i paid $5 to say "what's the point of that?"
to their faces..
deepshyatt.
ok restrain restain RESTRAIN!!

like i said..
it does things to me.
some other funny stuff happened
but i forgot what coz i was caught up in the photoshop timewarp.



ohh!

ytd i watched the rehearsals for the Reflections opening

& saw a double |rain|bow together with the Replugios.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

mmmhh..

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*171o1o* .

OasisOctober.

Sunday

tch.

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

*sigh*

♥LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*29o91o* .

SecernSeptember.

Wednesday

currently next block.
at bLs Zana baby jr.'s house.
i'm helping her out with her art coursework.
haha! i remember my 1st 2 years.

all i prepared for my exam was a mindmap.
& even so, i did it last minute during assembly.
during the exam, i just painted a scenery.

funny how i passed.
weird how i never failed art. LoL.


anyway.. her theme is tempo
but she's leaning more to melody.
so i suggested she add clockworks & a metronome.

now she's sitting at her comp sketching a grandfather clock.
& i just finished eating. x3

*sigh*

there are things i really want to say..
but i'll practice self-restraint.
so don't make me waver.

♥LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

..

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *o6o91o* .

AudaciousAugust.

Monday.

UT3 Cognitive.

my head hurts..
it's been hurting even more..
& it hurt throughout the whole freaking UT.

Go ahead.. move along.
finished the paper early & wanted to hit my head on the table.

sakit hati..
i couldn't stand the small talk.
i just wanted to get today over & done with.

Nothing to read here.
holding back.
dah takleh tahan..
semua nie..
i can't stand this.
nafas dah tak sempurna lagi.

I just need to babble insignificant shits to myself.
kehidupan dah takde arah tujuan.
sungguh.
i'm just stuck.
in too deep all i can think of is out.
any escape i can take.

Walk away.
kehidupan dah penuh khayalan..
i fill my head with dreams because i want to forget reality.
i smile a lot because if i don't i'll cry.
but these days i feel as if if i smile just a little wider
the tears would spill.

Please & thank you.
Hati tak tenang..
Jiwa tak tenteram..
maafkan syidah yang berdo'a agar semua ini akan berakhir tidak lama lagi.

fuck i'm crying again.

no more phone calls this time.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

sobadlybutican't.

♥LaLa Land™ 

iwanttoscreamsobadlybutican't. thisisnotfuckingdrama. it'slifefuck.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy *o5o91o* .

AudaciousAugust.

Sunday.

technically monday.

I BLOG EVERY TIME I NEED TO TALK TO MYSELF.
i blog too much?
so what.
the only person i can talk to is myself.

weird? screw you.
really.

SCREW.

i'm losing my mind.

supernovatic migraines.

as a result from crying too much.

as circumstances took my breath away

i swear i was so freaking confused.

needed so badly to talk to someone..
didn't really know who to freaking dial.

dialed dialed dialed.

hung up. hung up. hung up.

go out? don't go out.

jump? don't jump.

people giving me encouragements to jump. oho~

♥thank you.

so much.

bipolar cowardly bitch i am.

fuck fuck fuck.

i'm so freaking numb right now..

scared for tomorrow.

i don't feel like going anywhere near there.

ezlink missing too.

but i don't think she'd let me stay at home coz of that.

so distracted for UT3.

bleh bleh bleh
ASDFGHXSDFGHJDFCVGBRDXTCFVBDTCFVBGTBNDCFVBYVB
UGH!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKMYLIFE!!

needtoescape. needtodisappear. needtoquit.

need. need. need. need. need. need. need. need.

need. need. need. need. need. need. need. need.

need. need. need. need. need. need. need. need.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

Wake up.

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *3oo81o* .

AudaciousAugust.

Monday.

holla beetchez!
do yourself a favor & stop hating.

just the same as those idiots who chop each other off.
heartless & cold.
killing off your own species.

soon your people will be extinct.
if your life is worth living.. you'd stop bitching.

i'm sorry for being vulgar.
i feel like it is a necessity for today.
hope for the best it'll be the last time.
just an advice. take it or leave it.
don't leave anyone with reasons to hate you.

there's only one life.
don't waste it being horridly grotesque & repulsive.

as will i..
in doing my best to follow suit.
what?
you thought i won't take my own advice?
i've got a fairly working brain.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

It's a tuesday. On tuesdays we have science.

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *o6o71o* .

Pshht. pissed.

Faci:=Syidah2+(FocusOnTheLesson x 2)

shuttup.

yeah.

i miss you.

so.. ♥

i don't know what to type.

oppz~ last~

trying my best not to smile now.. x3333333

waiiee~~~ UBER CUTENESS!!!~ <3<3

귀엽다~~ 아주 너무 귀여워~~ x333

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

The non-existent line between truth & lie.

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Sat-dayy *o3o71o* .

Losing Touch With Reality..

What if my Lies were the Truth?
What if that truth wasn't a Lie?
Would you know which is true & what the lies were..?
If no one else.. i really wish you do..

|Doubt you'd ever read this..|
They don’t understand me because my brain is too randomly complicated.
But i’m wishing you would actually at least try to be the one who finally does..
why am i always the one doing the understanding?
i want it to be my turn to be understood.

BoomBoomBoom

DumDeeDumDUMB.
Fcuk this shit.

The things you wrote were so right.
now i kinda wish i could take back what i said ytd.
you are so harsh.
i'm not gonna do this any longer.
im gonna stop acting.

this message is for a person who leasts expects it's for him.
to someone else.. i hope you don't get wrong ideas.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥