Starstruck anyone?

♥LaLa Land™ 

it's a beautiful dawn..

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *23o81o* .

AudaciousAugust.

MelancholicMonday.

too much fairytales? i just want to be happy.

i didn't blog ytd.. again.. =/
it's a beautiful feeling..
welcoming the dawn so warmly it's been a while..

i just feel like i'm so okay & together..
like nothing could go wrong for quite a while..
i'm so glad i feel like crying right now..
maybe i am but so what?
it's a good cry.

WTF WAS THAT? FUCK.
ahahaha!!~ cute!

i don't know..
maybe i've not been myself for a while..
maybe i didn't know what myself was for a while..

i kind of lost my personality..
what i thought was everything to me..
i just got demoralised from doing. like it was a chore.
words.. atmosphere.. teenagers..
they can do a lot to a gurl..
they can hurt & scar & not realise what they've done.

but it feels so much better..
it might be closure..
though it doesn't feel at all like it.
know what it feels like..?

an opening..?
a new beginning..?
♥welcoming the dawn of the new..

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

♥Let's have a LateNights/EarlyMornings Star gazing.

Anyone up for it?

let's have a lovely night..

snacks.. sweets.. stars..

travel around the milkyway?
conquer the galaxies with traces of us..
it's going to be fun. =)

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

A few hours till the end.

♥LaLa Land™ 
need a hug.
holidays are going to be..
filled.
boohoo...

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy *13o81o* .

AudaciousAugust.

FridayThe13th

Last day.
Let's end with a BANG!
nyahaha~

Been awhile since my last portrait.
They drove me that far.
Down to a place where i never thought i would be.
Where even all the things i couldn't live without..
i lived without.

they should be proud.
they are i'm sure.

.

Anyways.. Happy advanced 19th Jo~

glad you liked my free preview..

not going to give it up to you yet. x3

i'm sorry.
i did nothing today.
& i'm sorry.
for being a joykill during meeting.
& thanks..
for those guys who opened the door super big
just for me..
i don't think i'm that huge
but you people made me laugh.
though i don't know any of you..
& thanks Yaya..
for making me smile so early in the morn..

well..
i don't know you.
your intentions.
your anything.
sorry..
i wish i did. guess i don't.

i'm back..
Arts. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

Digits.

♥LaLa Land™ 

attitude.

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *12o81o* .

AudaciousAugust.

TumblringDownTuesday

Science.
my eyes are like O.o now.
so tired.

during lunch i went down to the library to meet the

FujitsuTechnician.

Cute dude. He looks superbly young.

anyway.. turns out..

my laptop autofixed itself.

yeah.. GOD knows how that happened.
cool.
and the little conversations we had.
LOL. so funneh.

at the start of the day i promised myself..

"I will be happy today.."

So far it went well..

Met Yaya in the bus..

Laughter in the morn~
Love her so much!~

yesterday broke fast with Yaya

and her friend and fellow AKLTG employee.

Us AK coaches when brought together..

the CRAZINESS.

been awhile since i sincerely felt that burdenless and happy.

One more day to make my own.

Divide and conquer.

takecare..

stay healthy.. be happy..

all the best love. =3

happiness is a path that's yours to take. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

Updated. Typical.

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Tues-dayy *o3o81o* .

AudaciousAugust.
TypicalTuesday.
time is running out..

it really is..
i don't know how long i can keep this up...
being high..
laughing like an idiot..
going crazy..
like everything's okay..
it's.. exhausting..

Time is running out for all of us..
maybe one day i won't be by you guys...
if it truly mattered..
search for me where the sun don't shine.
and fog conquers all..
when i can't take it..
i search for chills..
because fictitious blissful-serenity feels like a sin.

 

till the day.. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

Today.. Loads on my mind.

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy *21o71o* .

*sigh*

imma blast my songs to the maximum & be stuck in my own world.
stuck trying to forget what happened today a few years ago..

not productive in class at all..
no.. it isn't the weather..

stay, can't stay.
go, won't go.
*sigh*.. you.

not today. never today.
i've got too much on my mind already..

& i wish i could see you.. ♥
maybe i'd pay a visit later..



here's where my soul is at right now.

halfway there where you are..

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

1o more days.. nostalgia & melancholy.

♥LaLa Land™
harsh reality pulling me back to where you are.
& it's not somewhere i can reach.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy *11o71o* .

what is the most painful but human emotions..
like the moment i lost you..
though years ago it's still vaguely imprinted in my memories..

the fact that i know i can never get you back..

that i can never see you anymore..

that i can never talk to you..

that i can't ask you how you've been..

that i can't hear your voice..

your laughter..

your features litted by the gentle sunlight..

the glow on your face..

kindness of your smile..

the softness of your hair..

the days i have left to waste without you..

 if only you knew how much..

if only it was me & not you..

places switched. fates altered.
stabbed & shattered to a million pieces.
left to pick up your own broken shards.
sharp, cold, reflecting your tears..

done us part.. ♥

impossible to erase..

what has been erased.

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

bonjour..

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy *o7o71o* .

Love the sound of french words.
The sweet sweet poison rollin on the tip of the tongue..
Like drinking ChocoLatte just when the sun appears..
At the point where the sky touches the horizon.

im in love.
Just like Art.
French..

C'estLaVie.

Mais la vie est douce-amère.

so.. ♥

no time to type. =3

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

Once upon a time..

♥once upon a time..
isn't really a happy phrase.
coz there's a start..
& there's TheEnd.

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *31o51o* .

but this isn't a fairytale.
& nothing we do now would end our story.
the world is like a stage..
more than just a stage.
it's that dimmed puppet theatre kind.
& the people in it aren't just merely players.
they put on masks & fictitious facades.
thinking no one will guess their paradox.
living life each day with that heavy burden.

but some would know better.
they know these poor souls for who they are..
love them for who they are.
regardless of the people realising it.
to my dear bLs..
don't try so hard to smile..
you have loads of friends who care for you genuinely..
don't hurt yourselves acting like you just don't care.

we have our entries & exits.
soon you'd have to start a new chapter.
so when you leave this one. don't leave with any regrets.
cry if you have to.
scream if you want to.
the tears once shed will never come back.
the screams never twice heard.

not anymore..

if we miss this chance..
we might never get it again..

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥

♥Confession sessions..

closer to heaven..

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy *23o51o* .

Back from ConfessionSessions @WCP[WestCoast]..

said whatever we wanted to say to the waves..

Now all the whispers are washed away by the ocean.

woke up almost till noon.

1/3 bLs came to visit & help with spring cleaning.

talked about stuffs.

like

Dj:"why talk behind people's backs when you can confront each other face to face to resolve the problem?"

me: "coz they choose to pick a fight."

skip that. nights at WCP are nice~

over here.. we left all our problems & present reality..

& talked about our future & dreams..

what i've been desiring since God knows when..

opening a cafe with everything in it..

photography[places i've been..]..

fine art[sketches of faces i've met throughout my life..]

fab music[emotions i've recorded]..

colourful fragrance[flowers to bring life to the haven]..

sweets[my bestfriend hot cocoa always & forever]..
& last but not least..

White walls to wash away all the sins..

leaving nothing but blissful serenity & hints of purity..

YES. i'm a Dreamer.

but..

i'll MAKE it HAPPEN.♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious ♥